a never-ending story

I woke up during the nights.I had trouble moving on,constantly trying to find that fighting spirit in me that I lost the past couple of months. I felt like screaming but screaming inside is all that I could come up with now. I am simply too tired to move on.

What's the point if I am actively developing others if the people that I love and care about the most in the world are neglected and left...un-developed?That is simply being too hypocrite,isn't it?

Yesterday, I gave a talk in front of a group of students in the Faculty of Business in University of Malaya regarding the "cold truth and facts" about being start-up entrepreneurs.I hesitated.I did 'cuz for all I know I am scared that these innocent group of students are taking advices from the wrong person. But what I did emphasized on is that, if you are determined and serious about making it big in this field,dudes, and even ladies, you've got to have some balls to face the challenges that every now and then bombards you.

When I am at my lowest, I do tend to distant myself from everybody else other than the people I regard as closest and closest to me. I do not want to be the one exerting the negative aura to the people around me and it will make it all the worse.I am s e r i o u s.

I always have the good memories and spirit to help and contribute in the development of our nation as a whole, but for now, regardless of what people would say and assume, I would want to develop myself and the people around me first.